Friday, October 31, 2014
Journal entries 11/9/02, 11/10/02
Thank You for making me into a writer. I never would have even remotely imagined that I would enjoy journaling and writing about what You are doing in my life.
Lord Sometimes I wish that I had another sibling to be able to go through this with. I know that You have let this happen to me in this way because You love me and that You are teaching me so much. Lord I feel like crushed clay. Put me back together like only You can.
Lord it is difficult to write about something that I am going through right now. Help me to be able to step away from it a little bit. Thank You for making me into a writer. I have learned and written more in this journal than ever in my life. You have made it clear to me the best thing for me to have done in these past three months is to write about what I am feeling. Lord, I definitely desire to write a book some day about how I made it through and am making it.
I am broken clay. Only You can make me into something worthwhile. (NOTE: Need to talk more about clay and the process and how that relates to today).
Today is the last day that I’ll be slowly going through journal entries. Starting tomorrow Saturday November 1, 2014 I will be going quickly through the journal entries and pulling out the main themes. I will no longer be posting everything that I’m writing as I have a goal of 1,667 words per day. This is daunting, but I know that I can do it and I will do it. A friend of mine stated that it will be helpful to write from the heart and not think about making it perfect right away. I’ve even heard it said that it is helpful to not even fix misspellings, but just keep going. I’m not fixated on a certain word count. I do know that it is possible for me to get through my journals by the end of November and to really start writing my official draft for the book. I intend to publish this book. I know that it must come out of me. I really do “owe it to the world” to share my message. I am excited more than afraid about it. This is not easy writing, but it will be worth it.
I think it is amazing that even back then I considered myself a writer. It took me much longer to actually call myself a writer to other writers. I know that this is going to be an interesting process to get what I have into an actual book. The cool thing is that it can be as long or as short as I want it. I’m still having trouble reading memoir, but that will be part of the process this month.
I want to expand on the metaphor of broken clay and what it takes to put clay back together. I’m guessing a lot of heat and pressure and pain. Great thoughts. Starting tomorrow my format will change again. I’m not sure exactly what I will post on blogger, but know that I’m making lots of progress.